fear. i’ve been thinking a lot about it lately. i have been living in fear my entire life. i constantly fear failure, incompetence, rejection… the list goes on and on.

but 2020 has allowed me plenty of time for reflection and the ability to discover new understandings of who i want to be and what i want to do with this life i have been given.

i am tired of living in fear.
i am tired of doing everything “right” only to feel miserable and dissatisfied.

i want to experience a life that is messy and chaotic, but full of meaning.
i want to be challenged.
i want to fail and grow from it.
i want to feel incompetent and learn from it.
i want to face rejection and realize it’s okay.

at the end of this life, i want to be able to say that i truly lived — not held back by fear, but driven by the courage to keep moving forward.